Priceless...

I'm dumb.

You are smart.

I'm weak.

You are strong.

I'm ugly.

You are beautiful.

I don't deserve anything.

You deserve it all.

I'm worthless.

You are Priceless.

-C.A.Raven

Priceless - For King & Country

Remind Her...

Dear God,

   I ask that you help my past self. Guide her in the right path and give her faith for when all else seems to fail. Remind her that she's not alone, that you're there with her even though she feels completely alone.

   Give her strength so that she doesn't take the easy way out or even think about it. Remind her that you're right by her side and will let no evil harm her. Tell her that its okay to be afraid, but to never let fear win.

   Remind her that the demons that try to scare her are powerless against her because you're with her. Remind her that she has true strength, she just needs to learn how to use it.

   My God, I ask that you remind her that she's beautiful and worth loving. Show her how to love herself so that when her heart gets broken she won't see herself as unlovable, worthless, a toy, ugly, useless, etc. Remind her that no person, no man, is worth her tears. Remind her that she's beautiful in every way. Tell her that she's priceless and worth more than gold and silver, more than any fine jewel that exists on this planet, this universe.

   Remind her to never trust anyone more than you. Show her that your promises will never be broken, that she will never feel betrayed with you by her side. Remind her that the only first place in her heart belongs to you because only you can grant her true happiness.

   My God, remind her that those who make her cry aren't worth her time. Make her see that the people who betrayed a child of yours will pay dearly, but by your hand. Show those around her the wrath that comes from hurting your children. Remind her to leave herself in your hands and to never seek vengeance on her own accord for nothing good comes of it.

 "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." -Romans 12:21  

   Remind her that you will always love her. From the moment her mother carried her in her womb, she was (is) special and has a purpose in this world.

   She's struggling right now and desperately needs you. Please bring peace to her heart. She's in so much pain right now that she had given up on you for a while, but I know that you're still providing for her. She's one of your favorite children, I know it.

   She's been told by total strangers that you have a plan for her. That she should never give up on what she's doing because you have a grand future for her.

    She's going through everything at such a young age so that when the time comes, she will be able to guide the new young ones through the right path. 

   Remind her that you gave her mother a vision of her standing in front of hundreds of people, giving her testimony of how you worked wonders in her life.

   Remind her how you saved her from taking her own life, how you made the voices stop at night. Remind her how you helped her sleep when she was restless, how you helped her accept her sexuality and helped her overcome it.

   Remind her how you helped her understand and accept those around her regardless of gender, religion, sexuality, etc. so that she could come to a conclusion on who she was.

   She still has trouble accepting how beautiful, amazing, and kind she is. That she's a heart with legs like her mother once told her.

   My God, help her see that life is worth living until the very end.

  "Always know that you are beautiful, there's no one else in this world quite like you. There is a magic in your heart without equal. I love you." -K.D.B.

         Remind her that even when her strength, her everything, is lost you're there because nothing can stop your children from praising you. Give her faith, hope, and keep her love forever strong.

   In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen.

   Sincerely,
     The last bit of sanity left in her that was able to speak out at this moment.

         P.S. Remind her that's its okay to cry to her mom too. 

-C.A. Raven

Even When It Hurts - Hillsong United

...And the Shine Fades

She shone bright, like the sun.

Filling the world with joy and fun.

He was dull, like the moon.

Filling the world with nothing new.

Yet, he fell for the sun.

And she, then, for him, came undone.

Days, nights come and go.

One two one and one two zero.

She then felt a shiver,
And found him behind the trigger.

Through emotionless eyes,
He shot her out of the blue skies.

"Why this?" she had asked him,
As her once sparkling eyes grew dim.

"I feel nothing for you."
Hurtful words, and painfully true.

Her sad eyes filled with tears.
This was one among her worst fears.

Not once did their eyes meet,
Yet she shared her last bit of heat.

"I love you, always will."
And the moon knelt down by his kill.

"I don't deserve your love."
The moon was selfish on his part.

"You're right, you really don't.
But who told you I would condone?"

"Who said I wouldn't fight?
Who gave you claim of my own right?"

The moon did not answer,
Leaving all questions unanswered.

Color has left her face.
Only she could die with such grace.

The darkness now cascades.
"No one," he says, and the shine fades.

-C.A. Raven

Hidden Emotions

I'm alone.

Weak is what I feel right now.

Almost numb, but there's still that ache in my chest.

Not far off are the red pebbles, tempting me, but I dare not touch them.

Today, another one of the buds of my orchid has finally opened.

They make me quite happy. Especially since I've always been terrible with plants.

Open and sincere I am to them.

Deep secrets I whisper to them. I also tell them how much I love them.

I think they know I'm sad though.

Every day they see me off to a new day.

It helps me cope with what I feel inside.

-C.A. Raven

Magic Pebbles

Those red,

Little, magic

Pebbles are really pretty.

If I take them all,

Will my wish come true?

-C.A. Raven

Dark Chocolate

I love dark chocolate, so bittersweet!

I can't help it, it's my favorite thing to eat!

Rich flavor coming from the salt inside.

So subtle the taste was, yet left nothing to hide.

Far and wide, I kept a square in my hand.

Having them with me felt like more than a dreamland!

I ate and ate 'till I felt something change.

I ate and I ate, yet something felt very strange.

Would bittersweet no longer bring me joy?

Would I see and eat them and no longer enjoy?

After some time away I've come to say,

I'll enjoy bittersweetness day-to-day!

Although I don't have it regularly,

I will forever have, and love, Ghirardelli.

-C.A. Raven